Sour lemons

Year 2011 Ender

2011-12-30T00:01:00.005+08:00

As 2011 is coming to a close and as we beckon 2012, I would just want to take time to relive my memories of 2011 and how I think it is THE best year so far.

Physical things like a new, well, not-so-new-hand-me-down phone, bags, books, clothes, food, etc. that I am thankful for.. New friends that I have earned along the days.. Rekindled relationships.. Reunited moments with my high school friends that I will always treasure.. A new bestfriend that I'm happy to have.. An ever supportive boyfriend and all the days we spent to know more things about each other.. Family.. A chance to know myself more..

This year I became 20, next year 21.. Stating the obvious, time really flies so fast. If there are things that I would wish for is that I have more opportunities to discover so much more about myself and about humanity and to grasp the universe. That and a puppy.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! May you have a blessed 2012 :)

Hoshigirl's Christmas Giveaway

2011-12-21T22:50:00.004+08:00

I can't believe that I saw this just now. I'm joining Gel's (Hoshigirl) Christmas giveaway. Why? Cos I think the prizes are nice since I love ELF products and for the consolation prizes are super nice cos Gel's items from her online shop are sooo cute.

These are some of here giveaways. Cool, huh.

It's really easy to join: like her facebook page, tweet her something like this, you can blog about it for an additional 10pts, and DON'T FORGET to comment your raffle info here. Easy, huh? Go on and try your luck. :)

Birthday post

2011-11-10T13:35:00.000+08:00

I think this is my best birthday so far. And my high school friends are to be credited for that. I invited my closest friends from high school (which are the bestfriends anyone can have) and we just pigged out at home. They brought ice cream and my boyfriend brought a tiramisu cake which basically made my day. I made mango grahams too (it's initially called mango float but mango grahams is more appropriate, I think) which gained so much positive responses cos everyone liked it. Sorry for the lack of photos since it's an awkward moment for me to be taking so much photos of food lol! In short we had lots of kwentos and laughters over food. Then we watched Super 8 with microwave popcorns. I'm just so blessed to have friends that aren't KJ and are willing to go home late hehe. Then some of my friends decided to spend the night with me since it's too late for them to go home. That means all nighter heart to heart talks with them, which I pretty much missed!! That night compensated for my coming-of-adult-age dissapointment lol!

Thank you friends & thank you to the best boyfriend in the whole world! :)

SEM 1: Mission Accomplished

2011-11-04T13:50:00.005+08:00

I have been on a hiatus for a few months. It's because I became very busy with school. That serious drive to get better grades really pushed me to focus more on my studies because I noticed that my grades are just satisfactory. Although I'm very thankful that I don't have any failing grade for the past semesters, I want to push myself a little more. And it really paid off! :) I saw my grades yesterday and I'm just so happy on how hard work + prayer worked :)

On study nooks

2011-08-28T23:46:00.001+08:00

I've had a couple of major exams last week. And what I noticed is that I find studying more effective when I'm not at home (e.g. coffee shop, library). I also noticed that I accomplish more work not at home cos when I'm at home I tend to be easily distracted (especially by sleep). Reviewing 7 chapters on Operating Systems at Starbucks only took me 2.5 hours. I guess I found my comfortable study spot. That means I'll be maximizing my library privileges and spending more of my allowance.

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The looong weekend means loooooonger schoolworks. Although this could be the time for rest for most of us, we should also be productive cos I know school's demanding so much at this time cos the semester's about to end. Good luck! :)

♕ Keep calm

2011-08-16T23:57:00.002+08:00

Stop, take a deep breath, relax.

Three things I often forget. If sometimes wrong, breathe. If you're having doubts, stop. If you're stressing already, relax. ☺

Life could be really demanding. And 24 hours a day isn't enough. Nevertheless, I need to disconnect myself from it all from time to time and just relax.

Keeping it cool

2011-08-07T23:14:00.002+08:00

I'm not the type of person comfortable in speaking in front of the class. There are those who seem to easily speak out what's in their mind and I envy them XD How words flow exuberantly from them. In fact, there are those who seem silent but surprisingly outspoken when they're reporting in front of the class. While I sit there, sweating myself, waiting for my turn to report and humiliate myself. To make matters worst, I think of unfortunate situations that might happen to further humiliate me like tripping while I'm on my way in front of the class, having sweaty pits, stuttering, blanking out, feeling nauseous then vomitting due to nervousness. I know, I'm being overdramatic hahaha. I know some of you feel this way too before speaking in front of a crowd, maybe even those gifted speakers. They're just so good in keeping it cool.

Quick post

2011-07-26T11:32:00.004+08:00

Just so happy that the hell week has passed. Me and my partner spent last week making this for our project:

It's an online class record for teachers where they could create classes, view and compute their class record. Although there were flaws, which could be fixed easily, I'm happy that we finished it. This course (BS ComSci) might be hard, but it sure is rewarding once you see your effort rewarded well. :)

Linear Algebra

2011-07-14T14:33:00.002+08:00

Linear Algebra

Yesterday we had 3hrs of this subject and it was the longest 3 hours of my life. LOL. This isn't actually my first time that I have a math subject for 3 hours straight. On my previous sems, I had Stat and Calculus with the same hours. But this one is tough because I can't just copy what the prof is writing and if I don't get it, I could study it at home. The prof asks random students to answer his questions so you have to keep up with what he's discussing. Pressure. Plus we're only 13 students in that class so the chances of you being called is bigger. Major pressure. This pushes me to study harder, especially now that I'm in my third year.

Unspoken matters could kill

2011-07-11T12:28:00.000+08:00

I can't believe what he said a while ago, that he's sorry for something I know he didn't cause it alone. I, too, am responsible for how things turned out. I just didn't expect him to understand what a struggle it has been for me. And him suddenly comprehending it and actually talking to me about it was just something great. Because of that I'm thankful to God cause He knows I've been praying for it, asking for guidance for the right words. And who would've thought that it has been easy cause he took the initiative. I love you forever.

Ranting in a list

2011-07-04T16:53:00.005+08:00

Updating my blog on a Monday cause I don't have classes.

I submitted a skin in Blogskins last Friday and I got to admit, I wouldn't want to put that much effort in creating a layout only to have to find out that someone's ripping it. I've been using Blogskins ever since and I know how skins get abused cos of those who rip codes and don't give much credit in return. I know cos I'm one of them haha. So this skin might be my first and last submission.
I'm currently reading Catching Fire and as much as I want to read it to the very last page, I can't right now. Homeworks and stuff..
I officially hate Fridays and Saturdays. I have classes the whole day on Fridays (7am-5pm) and Saturday classes are headaches. You know the feeling how you struggle getting through the day with information overload and the traffic that accompanies you home. Gaah, it's so draining.
I've noticed lately that no one's updating their blogs which is so sad. :( Though I understand everyone's been very busy.

I hate how this post is full of bad vibes. Hello, new week. Please be good to me :)

About this note

2011-06-29T23:03:00.007+08:00

Found a little something in my notes. As you can see, the title implies how pissed/angry I was at this special person.. the person who I expected to be there on one time that I felt really down. This blog post isn't about reliving the pain or bitterness. Although seeing the note made me remember the feeling, I have totally forgiven him. Bygones be bygones. I know he didn't mean it. And I know that at times I like pushing away everyone who cares, especially him. But everytime, I just become more mature towards things like this. I know that I could never really understand myself. And I also know we'll be better.. I'll be better.

Move in, move out

2011-06-28T16:59:00.004+08:00

I moved my blog to webs.com first week of June just to try something new. But here I am again, on Blogger. Let's say I wasn't satisfied in using webs.com. I didn't like their commenting form. I'm back on my blogger again. There's no such thing as a permanent blog for me. I've been blogging for so long and you can see that my archives date up to 2010 only. It's also a hassle for my link exchanges cos they've been re-linking me. *sorry face* Anyway, I've made a layout for my coming back. Lol. This is what I miss in blogger.. tweaking my blog. There are times when I miss blogging just cos I miss fixing it. Haha. I might even love making layouts than the idea of blogging. I don't know.

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Last week has been cold, I mean the weather. Just like many of you, Falcon got us stranded too. And because of the holidays and suspension of classes due to the typhoon, I was stuck at home. The bed weather was perfect for a series marathon. I can't believe how the mini-vacation led us into completing Prison Break season 1 to 3. (I know we're a little behind.. the world) And now we're halfway into season 4. It's addicting to watch plus the lead is a hottie. Lol. There are so many twists. So if you haven't watched it yet, you definitely should. :D

Tears don't mean you're losing

2011-05-31T11:49:00.002+08:00

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars! Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing, it's okay not to be okay. Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart. Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising, just be true to who you are.

My boyfriend introduced this song to me, Who You Are by Jessie J. He gave the video where she sang on a subway station (which couldn't be embedded here). Jessie J is fond of street performances, he said. Yeah, he's a fan. Haha. It's a very meaningful song.

It's okay not to be okay.

Nobody's perfect. Hurting means you are human, that your feelings are not controlled by someone. What's important is you stand up and learn from all of these.

Dear you,

2011-05-29T22:06:00.003+08:00

The other night I got mad at you over a petty matter that could be resolved easily. The next morning I woke up and called you good morning and reminded you how much you meant to me. Needless to say we exchanged unspoken apologies through the phone. How much patience you give me. How much room for growth you offer me. Sometimes I cannot grasp the idea of how inifinitely you care for me.

Current thought

2011-05-26T11:24:00.004+08:00

My tentative sched for next sem. I'm thinking of dropping the NatSci cos (1) it's so early, (2) it's a 3-hour class. toxicity, and (3) long break! Look at the 11:30-3pm break. So I think I'm gonna cancel my slot there.

Au revoir

2011-05-25T12:17:00.004+08:00

I can't believe summer classes are over!! XD which means no more Physics evaahh! For the mean time, that is. Cos I'm not yet confident if I'm gonna pass. Finals was freakin hard. Dont get me wrong, I studied. Okay maybe I checked my Facebook once in a while. Haha. Man, I'm not confident at all! If I fail Physics, that means I just wasted my summer waking up 5am everyday. And also my boyfriend's cos he calls me to wake me up and make sure I won't fall back to sleep so I won't be late. So please God don't make me flunk Physics. For the mean time, I won't be thinking of it cos I just wanna enjoy the three remaining weeks before classes resume for the first sem.

My final exam for Physics was yesterday. After that my boyfriend and I decided to go out. We went to UP Diliman to eat isaw cos we really miss those barbecued intestines. It was raining so hard, plan B was to go to Trinoma and eat at Taco Bell instead. We just wanna pig out. Good thing the rain subsided so we were able to go to eat Mang Larry's isaw. If you are fond of eating isaw then you must try the isaw there, plus other barbecued organs. Lol. Just ask the jeepney drivers around the campus and they'll know where. We were about to go home when our high school friend texted and invited to play billiards. Though it was pouring so hard and it's 9pm we decided to go. What a summer class-ender.

Ten facts

2011-05-22T22:44:00.009+08:00

Tagged by Clau, Nikole, and Sayraah.

RULES:

1. Each tagged person must post ten things about themselves.

2. You have to choose and tag ten people.

3. Go to their blogs and tell them you tagged them.

4. No tag backs.

5. Have fun.

1. I used to bully my boyfriend back in high school. At that time we were just friends, and I was the worst friend ever. No, I didn't bully him because I like him. I just do it cos I'm a bully.
2. I learned html when I was 13, the year I began to blog. Nothing to brag, really. Computer programmers wouldn't even acknowledge it as a programming language. LOL
3. Speaking of which, I am stuck with my course, Computer Science. I don't know why I chose this course.
4. I am in love with street foods.
5. My favorite tv series would definitely be Skins (UK). I haven't watched the US remake but I bet it's just crap.
6. I haven't watch Harry Potter. Tell my, have I missed half of my life?
7. I throw a fit whenever my boyfriend arrives late. But to others, I just get annoyed.
8. I fell in love with Neil Gaiman when I was in 2nd year high school.
9. I have four siblings, all are girls. Yes, kakahabol ng boy we ended up being five girls in the family. Plus my mom.
10. I am currently addicted to NBA 2k11.

NBA 2k11
I'll be tagging Tricia, Eva, Bianca, Frances :D

My most favorite person

2011-05-20T23:12:00.006+08:00

Highlight of the week. The sweetest pasalubongs are in priceless efforts.

Photos shot by my boyfriend from Caleruega.

Brochure from Caleruega on which he wrote: "Will you marry me here?"

I will never forget the little things like these that you do. :)

Patapon 3

2011-05-15T18:26:00.004+08:00

Currently playing Patapon 3 on my boyfriend's psp cause I only have patapon 2. It's so addictingly cute I can't even finish reviewing for tomorrow's physics exam. I look stupid singing along with their insanely cute chants, some I can't even understand.

Yes, I have all the time in the world. I'm dead meat. Now I have something to blame if I flunk Physics, which is likely to happen.

He is We

2011-05-14T22:32:00.002+08:00

I have loved this band since I found them on PureVolume, which was 2 years ago. I love their songs and her voice. I found their songs so cute and so innocent, which matches well with the lead's voice. Plus we have the same name, but different spelling. LOL. If they visit here, I won't miss the chance to see them perform. Here's a song from their latest album. :)

Press play for good vibes.

I got a new book

2011-05-14T11:33:00.004+08:00

I decided to buy a book because I miss my alone time delving into a good old book. So before meeting with my boyfriend for lunch I went to Book Sale, since I don't have much.

It's waaaaay cheaper because it's used books. I know it's not the same, and it's harder to find the books you like here. But if you're patient enough you can find lots of good books with a cheap price.

I bought Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood for Php45. And as I began reading it, I noticed something else inside. A polaroid was inserted inside the book with a vague picture of maybe a thumb? I really can't discern the image. I just find it cool how someone who last read the book might've used the polaroid as a bookmark, maybe?

I showed it to my boyfriend and he told me, "Baka cursed yan! (Maybe it's cursed!)". And I just laughed.

It's Kind of a Funny Story 2010

2011-05-10T19:18:00.007+08:00

I watched It's Kind of a Funny Story which was based on a novel of the same title. It's a nice inspiring movie. I especially love the screenplay and soundtrack! :D It's about a boy finding himself admitted in a psychiatric ward after experiencing depression and suicidal thoughts. There he met a lot of people with different problems and he found that there are other people who goes through a lot more than he does. I want to tell the rest of the story but it might spoil you so better find out for yourself :D

Sometimes, we tend to feel as if our life's not worth living. There are times when we feel self-pity; like we are cheated on by the world, as if everyone conspires against us. I, myself, feel that also (especially when I PMS. lol). We all have our own burdens to carry. And when we decide something, we have to consider those who cares for us - how it will make them feel - not just ourselves. Cause if we don't, we just add load to the burdens of everyone.

I mentioned I loved the screenplay. This is my favorite part.

Source: thisisnotfragile

2011-05-09T23:55:00.003+08:00

I have this impulsive craving for frozen yogurt.

So after our Mother's Day Dinner, we went to California Berry for dessert. I tried their seasonal froyo, which was blueberry that time. I find their froyo satisfactory. It's just too sour compared to other froyos. And I would have been satisfied more if I had froyo at Yohgurt Froz (sadly, no Yohgurt Froz @ SM Megamall).

2011-05-07T21:27:00.004+08:00

My phone malfunctioned T_T It's not actually my phone, it's my boyfriend's. We switched phones last time just for the fun of it. It's a slide phone and you know how delicate those are. What happened was the screen went completely white. And now I can't text him nor read any messages I receive cause of my destructive hands. :( So tomorrow we'll be having it fixed.

Just ranting.

Summer class sucks

2011-05-04T21:53:00.003+08:00

I really hate the fact that I have summer classes. It's not that I'm taking the subjects in advance, nor did I fail (thank God). It's part of the curriculum. Having morning classes means no staying up late :(

Wake up @ 5am, reset the alarm to 5:30
Physics @ 7am to 9:40
Humanities @ 9:45am to 11:45
Home @ about 1pm
Sleep until 5pm
Do everything else I need to accomplish
Hit the sack @ 10.30pm

Can I have a normal summer to relax after one school year?

The "post-hiatus" post

2011-05-04T19:30:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, there's this guy highschool best friend who treated us Yellowcab since he already got his salary from his summer job. (a bit jealous on the fact that he had a summer job) So it was pizza day and movie marathon that afternoon. I just miss my high school friends. *sighs*

My boyfriend's pic on my blog cos he looks cute (rather, pa-cute)

Telepathy

2010-11-04T22:09:00.002+08:00

I woke up this morning with a cold sweat and the thought of my deepest worst darkest fear. Yes, I've been carrying it for months now without having the courage to share this even to the closest person I've been with cause this fear includes that person. It sickens me not having to share with this person the burden I feel inside my chest every time I think about the future. I just wish this person would one day wake up with the power of telepathy so that words wouldn't be necessary. Or maybe when I tell this to this person, this person would just listen and the quiet would magically put things to how I want them to be.

I hate conformity. But at the same time I wouldn't want to hate conformity. I know, I'm struggling between what I feel and what I should want to feel.

Im not abandoning you

2010-11-01T22:23:00.003+08:00

I know it's still sembreak but might as well post my unofficial sched (since I don't have PE yet) made by ♥ for ranting purposes. I hate hate hate waking up early so this sem might be /wrist. But at least I don't have Saturday classes. Yay! Hello programming again. And please welcome me back for the nth time to blogging again?

Sick

2010-06-06T21:53:00.003+08:00

I was supposed to shop for clothes a while ago since classes start on Tuesday and we don't have uniforms. But then I got so pissed.

People are chameleons, capable of changing their skin colors to blend in with the environment.

They act impenetrable and stubborn when they know they're sensitive.

They think their resiliency covers their weaknesses in the soul.

They seek for empathy in behalf of their spite

Cause we're just all sick chameleons.

Enrollment day

2010-06-04T09:53:00.005+08:00

So last Wednesday I got enrolled. The registration was quite smooth and for me to say that means I was lucky. Went to the college at 9.40 and finished enrolling by around 11.00. That includes a few chats with teh blockmates.

Hello, schedule. I feel a bit contented with it cause I don't have 7am (or last sem, 6.30am) classes since I haaaaaaaaate waking up so early. But then, classes up to 7pm? That sucks maaaan!

Anyway, after eating lunch with some blockmates I met up with my high school friends (Disney, Michal, Lance) to play a couple of LAN games for 4 hours. We've always been doing that since summer and it's really fun even though we're playing the same games over and over. After all, it's the company that makes activities fun, right? Then we went to Disney's place to supposedly watch movies. But when we attempt to watch a movie, we always end up talking or making harot. Soo we ended up watching three episodes of Skins and relating a character (Cassie) to our HS classmate. LOL. Then we pillow fought and laughed our asses of. Gosh, I feel like I'm still in highschool. Good times, goooood times. :-bd

Who's the wallflower now?

2010-05-30T23:51:00.005+08:00

Is Catcher in the Rye one of your favorite books? Then I bet you'd like The Perks of Being a Wallflower. I wasn't able to get a hard copy of this book which I just read in an ebook due to an obvious reason (it's summer. which means scarcity of moolah!). But after reading it I swear I'd get a copy soon for me to reread it.

It's just stimulating to read and it's one of those once-you-begin reading-you-wouldn't-want-to-stop books. The protagonist's character is just refreshing cause he's the sweetest ever. (Not in a cheesy corny kind of way).

The novel's nice and all but of course Catcher in the Rye is still Catcher in the Rye.

The novel really is refreshing. Just like these sunflowers.

I hope you get what I mean. :)

PS. I would love to know your favorite book coz I'd be glad to read them too.

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School's just around the corner. I'm excited and at the same time anxious coz I know it will be another sem that I would barely get through. Last year it caught me off guard but now I'm a bit conditioned and quite whine proof. *fingers crossed*

No such thing as a permanent blog for me

2010-05-29T15:33:00.000+08:00

I noticed how I've been "blogging" in Notepad for the past year. Yes, I'm not using my blogger account for almost a year now. And I decided to make ANOTHER blogger account. I just miss the substantial feeling of reading and commenting to other bloggers' posts.

I shall post all the "entries" I've done if I would even have the guts. LOL.